Xiao Yunyun lowered her head and confessed, “Yes, I know that my right hand can’t be cured. You don’t have to try to hide it from me anymore.”
Shen Yuechuan squatted down in front of Xiao Yunyun and looked at her. “When did you know it?”
She didn’t look up. She didn’t want to answer Shen Yuechuan’s question.
She was afraid. She was afraid that Shen Yuechuan’s kindness and pampering for her these days was only because of guilt and sympathy, instead of his love for her as she had thought.
She didn’t want to take advantage of her injuries to ask for Shen Yuechuan’s company, which was simply an insult to her feelings.
“Yunyun,” Shen Yuechuan said, “speak.”
Xiao Yunyun didn’t speak. Her eyes became dry and tears welled up in her eyes.
She lowered her head and shed tears silently, and the teardrops as big as beans fell on the quilt one after another. With a “pa” sound, the tear was like a drumstick hitting Shen Yuechuan’s heart heavily.
In the end, Shen Yuechuan couldn’t bear to ask any more questions. He raised his hand to wipe her tears away, but Xiao Yunyun brushed off his hand.
He was stunned—in his memory, this was the first time that Xiao Yunyun had refused his approach.
However, if it weren’t for him, Xiao Yunyun wouldn’t have been hurt like this, let alone have lost the qualification to hold a scalpel.
Deep in her heart, Xiao Yunyun must hate him. Because of her complicated feelings for him, she couldn’t blame him.
Thinking of this, Shen Yuechuan stiffly withdrew his hand and looked at her from a distance.
“Shen Yuechuan, I would rather have a crippled right hand than let you pity me.” Xiao Yunyun looked at Shen Yuechuan resolutely and said, “You can go now.”
On the first day of her hospitalization, Xiao Yunyun tried her best to make Shen Yuechuan stay.
But now, she was actually chasing him away, using such an absurd and ridiculous excuse.
Things seemed to be different from what Shen Yuechuan had thought. He looked at Xiao Yunyun in confusion and asked, “Do you know what you’re talking about?”
“Of course I know. I also know why you took care of me and why you treated me so well.” Xiao Yunyun looked at Shen Yuechuan ridiculously. “You pity me just because my right hand was disabled! Shen Yuechuan, I don’t want you to treat me so well because of sympathy!”
“Disabled? Nonsense!” Shen Yuechuan grabbed Xiao Yunyun’s shoulders. “It’s still possible for your hand to recover. You need to cooperate with the doctor’s treatment. Don’t think too much, and don’t give up at this time.”
“Dr. Zhang is one of the domestic authoritative orthopedists.” Xiao Yunyun smiled and said, “He said that there was no way, which meant there was no hope. He asked you to find experts to hold a consultation, because he needed to give you a glimmer of hope to comfort you. Don’t be silly!”
The last sentence was exactly something that Xiao Yunyun wanted to say to herself.
She was a doctor. She knew better than ordinary people that in this world, there were many diseases that couldn’t be cured no matter how much money was spent and there were also injuries that could never be recovered. There were too many helpless things.
Health was like a lover who had left. If it was gone, people would lose it. Even if they lied to themselves, it would not be able to come back.
In order to be a doctor, she fell out with Su Yunjin. She studied hard in the medical college, and overcame her fear and discomfort. Finally, she could put on the white gown that she had always dreamed of, even though she was still wearing an intern’s card on the chest.
Nevertheless, even if she was just an intern, she was still one step closer to her dream.
Now, what was the use of recovering her student’s document and internship? She was no longer qualified to be a doctor.
When there was no love, she comforted herself that she still had a dream.
Now, her dream had also become out of reach.
She had nothing left. She had lost everything.
Then, just let Shen Yuechuan go. Anyway, he would never love her. He would finally leave her.
It was better to meet her doomsday when she had lost everything and make her suffer once and for all.
Shen Yuechuan clearly saw that the light in Xiao Yunyun’s eyes was slowly darkening, like stars falling from the sky and never shining.
She was giving up on everything, including him and herself.
Su Jian’an hid her injury from Xiao Yunyun because she was afraid that she would break down. The fact in front of his eyes proved that Su Jian’an’s worry was not unnecessary.
He looked into Xiao Yunyun’s eyes and motioned for her to calm down. “Yunyun, things are not what you think…”
“Stop it!” Xiao Yunyun pushed Shen Yuechuan away with all her strength, like a lion suddenly losing its temper. “Shen Yuechuan, you and Lin Zhixia were obviously fake lovers, but you don’t dare to admit it, just because you’re afraid that I will pester you, do you? You want to continue to use her, because maybe you can cheat me someday! You don’t have to work hard to pretend anymore. I won’t pester you anymore. I don’t want your sympathy and pity. You can go now, go!”
Shen Yuechuan narrowed his eyes in surprise. “When did you find it out?”
It was no wonder that a few days ago, Xiao Yunyun dared to pester him unscrupulously and questioned his relationship with Lin Zhixia. It turned out that she had known everything.
Xiao Yunyun was desperate and said with a smile, “The lies will always be exposed. How long do you think you can lie to me? Now, you don’t have to worry about me pestering you. Don’t worry. Just go. Don’t come again. Not to mention that my right hand is disabled, even if I am wholly paralyzed, I don’t need your sympathy!”
Shen Yuechuan stared at Xiao Yunyun and asked, “Who told you that I just sympathized with you?”
“Then why did you use Lin Zhixia to lie to me? Why didn’t you accept me?” Xiao Yunyun became out of control and shouted, “It’s my business that I knocked into the green belt. It has nothing to do with you, and you don’t need to feel guilty and be responsible for it. You don’t have to take care of me anymore. Just go!”
Xiao Yunyun stubbornly drove Shen Yuechuan away again and again.
If her right hand could never recover, he would blame himself for the rest of his life.
However, she didn’t want Shen Yuechuan to live the rest of his life while feeling guilty, and she didn’t need him to be good to her because of self-blame.
Either, he was purely good to her.
Or, he could simply leave her.
She didn’t want Shen Yuechuan to bear the consequences of the car accident with her. She was going to suffer for the rest of her life. She didn’t want him to blame himself for the rest of his life.
Every word of Xiao Yunyun was like a sharp knife stabbing into his heart. He looked at Xiao Yunyun and said, “Yunyun, calm down.”
“I’m very calm.” Xiao Yunyun cried and laughed. She smiled with tears streaming down her cheeks, “Shen Yuechuan, I don’t hate you, nor do I blame you. But don’t pity me, or I will only be sadder. Can you leave here? Don’t come to see me again. We don’t have to make things difficult for each other. I…”
All of a sudden, Shen Yuechuan held Xiao Yunyun in his arms and kissed her on the lips as if he were possessed.
Xiao Yunyun only felt a warm touch on her lips. When she realized, she was stunned and speechless. Her pupils enlarged in disbelief, so she could feel more clearly that Shen Yuechuan was really kissing her.
Did… Did he know what he was doing?
Shen Yuechuan knew what he was doing and also what the consequences would be.
But he could not stop or take it back.
He believed that it was not the biggest blow for Xiao Yunyun when he protected and believed Lin Zhixia, because she knew the truth and knew that she was innocent.
However, the fact that her hand could not recover and she could no longer hold the scalpel was the biggest blow for her.
Xiao Yunyun couldn’t bear such a big blow, and Shen Yuechuan couldn’t let her face the cruelest thing alone. He couldn’t leave her at this time, even if he had always hoped that Xiao Yunyun could take the initiative to give up on him.
Shen Yuechuan felt as if he had been obsessed. He wrapped his arms around Xiao Yunyun harder and harder, pried open her teeth, and deepened the kiss uncontrollably.
It was obviously an opportunity to distance himself from Xiao Yunyun, but Shen Yuechuan held her tightly in his arms like he had imagined in his dream.
At this time, Shen Yuechuan realized that the reason why he had allowed Xiao Yunyun to mess around these days was not guilt, but that his bottom line and defense line were collapsing.
She was just a student who had not graduated yet. She had the courage to get rid of the shackles of blood relationship, ignore the opinions of the secular world, and stubbornly pursue what she wanted.
He clearly loved her and wanted her, but why couldn’t he be as courageous as Xiao Yunyun all the time?
Why did he have to completely lose control when she stubbornly drove him away instead of playing tricks and asking him to stay?
Shen Yuechuan’s reason and self-control were smashed into powder instantly. He held Xiao Yunyun’s face, moved away from her lips, and kissed off the tears on her face. “Yunyun, that’s not the case.”
Feeling the warmth of Shen Yuechuan’s lips, Xiao Yunyun was so shocked that she lost her voice. She could only ask him in her heart, “What is the case?”
Shen Yuechuan kissed Xiao Yunyun’s red eyes and said, “I admit that I do blame myself. But it’s not because I sympathize with you that I stayed to take care of you and was nice to you.”
Xiao Yunyun felt that one of her nerves was trembling. She calmed down, moved her lips a few times, and finally found her voice. “Then why would you take care of me?”
“…”
“…”
“I love you.” Shen Yuechuan looked into Xiao Yunyun’s eyes, and said word by word, clearly and firmly, “Yunyun, I love you.”
“…”
How much she was surprised was as great as the difference between loving her and liking her.
These three words were like a beam of sunshine shining into her life. The despair and dead silence in her eyes finally faded away. Her beautiful almond-shaped eyes were becoming vital and lively little by little, like the earth which had been just blown by the spring wind.
If she saw correctly, Shen Yuechuan’s eyes were red.
If he had not truly loved her, why would he cry while confessing his love?
Xiao Yunyun was like a person who had been stubbornly traveling alone. She crossed mountains and rivers, went through the thorns, went over hills, crossed deep waters and dangers, and experienced the worst things. Finally, she found the person she was looking for.
She could not help crying, but it was different this time.
This time, she cried with happiness.
She ignored the wounds on her body and threw herself into Shen Yuechuan’s arms. Shen Yuechuan lowered his head and contained her lips in his mouth, absorbed her scent bit by bit, and swallowed her breath.
Xiao Yunyun took the initiative to open her teeth. Her lips and teeth were intertwined with Shen Yuechuan’s, and their breaths were mixed with each other’s.
At that moment, as long as she could feel Shen Yuechuan’s existence, she was willing to do anything.
Xiao Yunyun had thought that she was experienced in kissing—she had watched many kissing scenes on TV.
Only when she was really kissing Shen Yuechuan did she realize that it was not an easy thing.
Shen Yuechuan was like a beast that had been accumulating his strength for a long time. He squeezed everything out of her body without giving her any time to breathe. Not long after, she felt as if she could not breathe anymore.
However, she didn’t want to push Shen Yuechuan away. Even if she was suffocating, as long as she was in Shen Yuechuan’s arms, she was willing…