Chapter 1939 “Nightmare (7)”
Why?
Why am I back in this place?
Bai Yan’s eyes were in a daze as she swept her sight over to the familiar faces down below. She’s so lost that whatever Keeper Ling was saying went completely over her head.
“Did you hear me or what?” Leeper Ling’s eyes were cold and was further annoyed by the disregard from the woman, “Do you have any last words for yourself? If you do then hurry up and say it, we don’t have time to waste on you anymore.”
Bai Yan didn’t reply right away, rather she made a confused face for a good while before muttering the only words that came to mind: “What did you say?”
“Since you don’t want to say anything then we will begin the execution. Bai Yan, don’t blame us for not giving you the opportunity to leave a last will.” The old grumpy guy snorts a cold grunt and waved the men to begin lighting the pyre.
The hot flames promptly surrounded Bai Yan from all sides. Yet, the woman could not feel an ounce of pain, only a hollow emptiness at the people yelling at her with disdain.
Exactly like before, a purple robed and silvered hair man came to her rescue in the nick of time. But unlike the first loop, this time around the demon queen didn’t feel excitement after seeing her husband. She’s gone through a lot of loops already, but this was different and the only time back at the execution ground.
“How could this be… How could this be…” She clasped her head heavily as agony showed along her face.
Why is everything back to square one? All of it, why is this starting all over again?
Do I have to keep experiencing this pain? The pain of losing my friends, losing everyone I care about?
Falling into her lowest point, Bai Yan did not utter a word as she allowed Di Cang to take her away.
In the same way, everything that happened next was like a nightmare.
First it was the Demon Realm being besieged by the forces of the Celestial Realm, then it was the sacred beasts falling in order to save her. Afterwards, she did everything to the script as she pulled her pregnant self to find Di Cang after they lost contact with him. Lastly, she awoke once again under the grief-stricken cries of her husband after dying….
It never stopped. Each loop continued to grow in horror. Though sometimes the same, it also changed slightly with each variation to make it all the more painful. This continued until Bai Yan could no longer take it and became entirely numb.
Maybe, I can’t escape anymore?
And this is the reason why Di Cang and Suzaku are reluctant to let me enter the Hell Domain?
Bai Yan’s heart was still unwilling to give up, but what else was she supposed to do? She’s tried dying already, that didn’t work. Then she tried to change the events by whatever means necessary, that also didn’t pan out. Nothing was working!
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The blood-stained battlefield.
A young man’s figure stood strong and proud against the bristling wind. Though the life in the lad’s eye had faded by this point due to the open hole running right through his chest, the power this body carried could not be wiped away.
“White Tiger, it’s enough, enough! You don’t have to do this anymore. I don’t want to see you die every time like this! Please don’t do this, I can’t take anymore!” Bai Yan threw herself over to the still warm corpse, her tears depleted due to the repeated crying.