Chapter 830: Deceit
No feelings?
Xue Xi was stunned. She did not understand what this compensation meant.
Cen Bai seemed to be used to it. He lowered his eyes and slowly said, “When I was five years old, my grandfather passed away. When my grandfather was alive, he was especially good to me. At that time, Mom supported me and told me I could cry, but I could not cry. Mom said that I would never see my grandfather again. Wasn’t I sad? But I really wasn’t sad at all.”
Cen Bai smiled bitterly. “Later, Mom thought that it’s because I was still young, but as I got older, she realized that something was amiss with me. She brought me to see many doctors, and in the end, the conclusion she obtained was that I had no feelings. I was not capable of feeling love or hatred. It was the same whether they’re my parents or just strangers. I’m just a living corpse.”
After he said this, confusion flashed across Cen Bai’s eyes.
No, it could not be said that he was lost because he did not even have such feelings. He just could not see the future or feel hope.
He did not know why he was alive, but he did not want to be treated as a monster. Hence, he became an actor.
It was so that he could act at any time in his life. When he was sad, he would cry. When he was happy, he would smile. When he was dating, he had to protect his girlfriend…
He had learned all of this.
After making a new friend, he had to be happy. Even if they broke up, he had to be sad and feel pained…
Cen Bai had lived like an actor. Everything was faked. Hence, his parents and siblings did not love him and felt that he was a monster.
Because when he was young, he did not want to be told that he was sick, he worked hard to learn how his siblings expressed their emotions. At that time, the butler grandpa cared about him the most.
He often pretended to fall and teased him, telling him to laugh.
Later—
The butler’s brain hemorrhage suddenly acted up and he fell to the ground. His entire body was trembling. Cen Bai stood at the side and laughed.
Later, he was treated as a monster.
…
Just as Cen Bai was thinking this, Xue Xi finally returned to her senses.
She asked in surprise, “Since you don’t have any feelings, then your love for Little Chatterbox…”
Cen Bai pursed his lips and said honestly, “It’s also an act.”
An act…
Xue Xi was furious. “Why did you lie to her?”
However, she did not expect Cen Bai to look straight at her. “To get close to you.”
Xue Xi: “?”
Cen Bai slowly said, “All espers have to be controlled. The handful of us can live freely outside thanks to General Xiang, but you also know that General Xiang can make me disappear completely with just one sentence. I’m not afraid of death, but I don’t want to die either. So…”
When he realized that General Xiang treated Sister Xi differently, he tried to get close to Xue Xi.
However, at that time, Xue Xi and Xiang Huai were already a pair. If he got involved, he would only die faster. Hence, that afternoon, in the empty classroom where he had arranged to meet with Sister Xi, when he was blocked by a girl at the toilet door and she said in surprise, “Hubby, you came to the toilet personally,” he’d made a decision.
If he was Sister Xi’s best friend’s boyfriend, General Xiang would definitely take care of him more, right?
As he thought this, he slowly approached her.
At this revelation, Xue Xi trembled in anger.
She raised her fist and punched Cen Bai!
“Stop!”