Chapter 566: It’s Not a Shameful Thing To Admit Your Fear
Late at night, in the hospital.
Grandpa Sheng still had to stay in the hospital for observation. And tonight, it was Sheng Bowen and Hu Ran’s turn to stay there.
After Sheng Bowen mentioned about divorce, although Hu Ran did not talk about it anymore, they were somehow awkward with each other.
Now that Sheng Bowen and Grandpa Sheng were getting along very well, Hu Ran was worried that Sheng Bowen might accidentally tell him his decision. And once that happened, it would be irreversible.
“You should go home and rest. It’s enough with just me staying here to keep watch. Don’t you feel tired? You have to go to work during the day and take care of Grandpa at night.”
Sheng Bowen looked at Hu Ran and shook her head. “I’m worried that you might get into a dangerous situation being here alone.”
“Eighth Brother’s men are here. Why should you worry?” Hu Ran pushed him. “Just go home. We don’t need you here.”
Sheng Bowen felt helpless. Since he had a morning meeting tomorrow, he gave in. “I won’t stay here but I will stay at the hotel opposite the hospital. If you need me, I will be able to come as quickly as possible. Are you okay with this?”
Hu Ran flushed and nodded. “Then go.”
Grandpa Sheng could see the awkwardness between the two. He guessed these two children must not have progressed to the next stage in their relationship.
Now that Sheng Bowen had become the decision maker in the Sheng family, Sheng Kai had a lot of time to get drunk.
When Gu Ziling saw him in this state, she felt angry and aggrieved.
“Look at you now. Are you planning to totally give up on Huang Yao already? Look at yourself in the mirror. You have no fighting spirit at all. You don’t look like a man anymore.”
Sheng Kai sat up from the bed drunk and pointed to Gu Ziling, saying, “You… don’t judge me all day long. I also have dignity.”
“A man’s dignity is earned by himself and not given by the other people. Sheng Kai, Grandpa is urging us to get a child. Tell me what you want to do.” Gu Ziling decided to put the issue on the table now.
“Just get one then.” Sheng Kai sounded unnatural.
“Stop pretending already. There’s a problem with your body. How am I going to get pregnant?” Gu Ziling crossed her arms and sat on the edge of the bed.
Sheng Kai frowned and grabbed Gu Ziling’s clothes. “When did you read the document I locked in my cabinet?”
“Do I need to? We never used any contraception in these six months and I even purposely followed a conception diet. But still, I’m not pregnant. So, I went to the hospital to do a check-up and the doctor said that I am normal. Since I’m normal, then who else could the one with the problem be? I don’t think I need to spell out what you already know,” Gu Ziling said angrily.
“My body has no problem.”
“Stop acting tough already. If you don’t cooperate and go to the hospital to do an IVF, then don’t think about having a child for your whole life. By then, when Third Brother gets one, you will lose even more advantage.” Gu Ziling explained to him patiently about the stakes involved. “Think about it yourself.”
Sheng Kai suddenly felt humiliated in front of Gu Ziling.
Because what a man feared most was having a problem in that area and getting criticized by the other people about it, and now even his own woman looked down on him.
“I can’t accept this, especially if this matter is spread. I might as well die.” Sheng Kai suddenly sobered up and sat on the bed, looking very depressed. “I don’t know why things have changed.”
“If you are not willing to be the vice CEO or accept the fact that you are infertile, you will never make a comeback in this lifetime. Have you ever thought about how Sheng Xiao endured the humiliation from the people in the past six months? He could even do that with his temperament, so why can’t you? If you have decided to live like this, then I shall consider myself blind.”
Sheng Kai found it very painful and difficult to accept that he had suddenly fallen from the clouds and the fact that he was infertile had been exposed.
“Give me some time. I need time.”
“Just one night. If you want to continue living like this, then we will be forced to the dead end in the end.” Then, Gu Ziling went to the study. She wanted to give him space. If he still could not reconcile his thoughts in a proper manner, Gu Ziling reckoned there should be no reason for her to stick to him.”
…
Late at night in Jianchuan, there was a heavy storm.
Hu Ran hated this kind of weather, because she was still unsure if Sheng Bowen’s arms were her harbor. Meanwhile, Feng Shanshan who was betrayed by her friend and was homeless now was also awakened by the thunder.
She sat up in the dark, gasping for air.
Then, she switched on the lights and her action had unexpectedly alarmed Tang Yan.
“Are you afraid?”
Seeing him walking out of the study, Feng Shanshan shook her head unnaturally. “No… It’s just that it’s too loud. I can’t sleep.”
“It’s not a shameful thing to admit your fear.” Tang Yan went to the kitchen to get a glass of water for himself and he heated a glass of milk for her. “How long have you been alone?”
“Since I was very young,” said Feng Shanshan. “How about you?”
“When I was seven or eight years old, my parents died in the hands of kidnappers. Since then, I have been alone.” Tang Yan leaned against the sofa, drinking water while answering.
“No wonder…”‘His EQ is so low.’
Feng Shanshan held back the second half of the sentence without saying it aloud.
“That’s why you trained yourself so hard and became a policeman?”
“It’s late now. Just sleep. If you feel scared, you can keep the lights on or lie beside the fireplace. Being at a place with fire can help with your fear.”
Tang Yan refused to talk about his private matter, so Feng Shanshan did not probe further.
Apparently, they were pitiful people in this world. This man’s life experience was a bit more tragic than she thought.
At least, her parents were still alive.
Hence, Feng Shanshan decided not to hate him that much. After all, it wasn’t easy for him to not grow up to be a bad man when he lacked parental education.
Later, she wrapped herself in the blanket and sat beside the fireplace. Sure enough, looking at the fire, she felt hopeful and was less scared. More importantly, she knew that there was a strong man in the study. It made her feel safe.
All of a sudden, an idea popped into Feng Shanshan’s mind. Since Tang Yan was living alone, could he rent half of the house to her?
However, she put the idea at the back of her mind right after. Because Tang Yan seemed to like being a lone ranger and did not want to have any ties with people.
It should not be easy to persuade him.
So, it looked like she had to work harder to flatter him. She wanted to try and see if she could use her cooking to her advantage and make him nod his head.
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In the hospital, knowing the thunder would make the ward feel scary, Sheng Bowen went back to the hospital in the middle of the night.