Chapter 449 – Why Am I Like This, Don’t You Know
Xian Zihao hugged her tightly, bent his head down, and kissed her hair, her brow. He then wiped the tears from her cheeks. "I'm glad you're crying. I've been watching you hold your feelings for a month. I'm afraid you'll fall depressed, it's good you're crying. Ruolan, I'm here with you. I'll stay with you and no matter what happened, we'll face it together, I'll accompany you, okay?"
Jiang Ruolan sobbed and shook her head loudly, shouting, "I want a divorce!"
"No way!" Xian Zihao rejected her straightforwardly and hugged her even tighter.
"I want a divorce!" Jiang Ruolan insisted on her decision and pushed him away with her hand, "Xian Zihao, let me go! Don't force me! I beg you! I beg you to let me go! Divorce me! I beg you!"
He held her tightly, unwavering. "I won't let go!"
"Let go! Let go of me!"
Seeing that she was fighting too hard, Xian Zihao loosened his grip. He didn't want to hurt her.
As Jiang Ruolan fought with all her might, Xian Zihao looked at her seriously and said harshly, "Jiang Ruolan, if I let you go now, I will be the most scumbag person in this world! Now that you are behaving like this, not only will I not let you go, From now on, you can't leave Greenville Residence even half a step! I'm worried about your condition!"
"I'm fine! I just want to leave! Let go of me! I can't stand it anymore! Every day, I dream about my mother's death! Zihao, I know you love me. If you love me, then let me go! Don't let me suffer like this, I beg you." Jiang Ruolan cried as she slowly lowered her body and knees. She wanted to kneel to Xian Zihao. "I beg you!"
Seeing that she was about to kneel, Xian Zihao's eyes reddened as he pulled her up forcefully. "What are you doing? You're crazy!"
"Yes! I'm crazy! Every time I sleep, all the memories of my mother committing suicide playing in my mind until I get a nightmare! You too can go crazy if you watch your mom commit suicide terribly!" Jiang Ruolan's eyes reddened as she shouted at him. "Xian Zihao, what Cui Liuxian said before was right. Why must you keep a woman like me, who has a deep grudge against your Xian Family, by your side? Are you happy to see me suffer?"
"Why?" Xian Zihao's gaze locked onto her, his hands firmly gripped her shoulders as he made her look at him. "Why am I like this, don't you know?"
Jiang Ruolan shook her head loudly and covered her ears with her hands. "I don't know! I don't know anything! I just know that I'm really going crazy! This is the hardest choice I've ever made in my life, but I can't help it! Xian Zihao, no matter how much I love you, my mother won't come back! My mother … she won't be able to come back! She won't be able to come back!"
Seeing that the more she talked, the more agitated she became, Xian Zihao held her struggling body down and said softly, "Calm down first, we'll think of another way. There must be a way! There will be a way to achieve the best of both worlds, and I don't want you to suffer every day. Ruolan, you're hurting me too, so give me time, okay?"
"How can I give you time! You already know everything. The reason you hid it from me is that you want to think of a way to help me before I find out, right? But after so long, have you thought about it?" Jiang Ruolan no longer struggled and calmed down. She raised her head and looked at Xian Zihao's eyes coldly. There was not the only concern for her but also seriousness in his eyes. He cares more about this than she did!
Xian Zihao's grip tightened on her shoulder.
Jiang Ruolan sneered, "The dead can't be resurrected, what idea can you think of? Can you give me a living mother? Can you, Xian Zihao, turn back time and give me the love I should have received when I was little? Honestly, I never dared to hope for anything that was not there! But why should you torture me like this?"
"All of this is something you can't do. The person who caused my misery and even forced my mother to die twenty-one years ago was actually your beloved grandfather! It's all because of your father's greed! Why should my mother be miserable because of what your family had done? My mother was innocent! Why would they want to force her to die?! For the sake of your Xian Family's reputation and safety, Jia Zhenzhen went crazy and my mother died! What else can't Xian Tingfeng and Xian Jian can't do?"
Jiang Ruolan suddenly laughed out loud. "I finally know why grandpa wasn't angry when he found out that Jia Zhenzhen had been taken home. He was in no hurry to send her away because the reopening period of the case was over! He had driven a woman crazy to protect his son and locked her up abroad! Now, he can tolerate Jia Zhenzhen because he wanted Jiang Yijun to return to the Xian Family calmly and without revenge! The Old Man will use any available methods to achieve all his goals!"
She smiled, "My mother is more foolish. What did she think of leaving the necklace to me? This necklace could ruin the reputation of some of the sinners involved in this matter. However, I, Jiang Ruolan, have no strength, so what's the point of the necklace in my hand?"
Jiang Ruolan blinked once and kept laughing, "That's why I now understand why Zhan Lian is so eager to find the necklace after we get married. She's afraid that I'll borrow your strength. If you want to reopen the case and investigate it, then the outcome will be different."
Xian Zihao only looked at her, not once he interrupted her. Jiang Ruolan's eyes were ice-cold, but they had already returned to being calm.
Perhaps she was always calm. She already used all of these painful emotions to say what she wanted to say.
Xian Zihao looked her in the eye, looking at her intensely. "Ruolan, I know what you're suffering from. Your mother's death isn't really a small surprise in your life. It's just that you used to hold back, and you don't like to exaggerate the pain. Now that the truth is pressing down on you so hard that you can't breathe, you have no choice but to run away, but where can you run away? Do you think I will be at ease if you run away?"
He caressed her damp cheeks. "You're pregnant. With a big belly, how are you going to get away from me?"
Jiang Ruolan looked at him with red eyes. "I can live well. Jiang Ruolan in front of you is not that weak! Xian Zihao, even if I leave you, I will not die!"
"But I will!" He interrupted her, his eyes were heavy.
Jiang Ruolan stared at him in shock.
"If you leave, I'll worry about you all day. I won't be able to eat or sleep well, and it's hard for me to focus on my job. You won't die, but I will." He looked at her with a look of certainty. Finally, his voice slowed down and he said in a soft tone, "You are the little hedgehog whose thorns I have pulled out. Once you leave my sight, do you want me to carry only the thorns you left behind?"
Jiang Ruolan's face turned cold. "Xian Zihao, are you forcing me?"
Xian Zihao looked at her silently. After a long time, he finally said, "Yes, I'm forcing you to stay. Forcing you to stay by my side obediently."
"And if I don't?" She stared at him.
Xian Zihao smiled and did not reply. Just as she was about to cry in astonishment, he lowered his head and gently said, "It's useless to argue about it now. You didn't sleep last night, and now you're crying so hard. I'll carry you back to our room and have a good sleep first. Look at your face, it's already very pale, so wife, don't let me worry about you from now on, hmm?"