Chapter 2825: I Find It Impossible to Leave You
Mu Yanchen continued walking forward expressionlessly. He did not know what he was thinking, but his mind was in a muddle. In the midst of this chaos, it was as if he could hear countless voices going round in his head.
Suddenly, he heard from behind him, Meng Qingxue seemed to have broken down in exhaustion.
“Yanchen! Are you willing to give me a minute? I… I have something to tell you!”
She shouted these words with all her remaining energy.
Mu Yanchen stopped abruptly but did not turn around.
Meng Qingxue could not walk anymore. She bent over, supporting her own weight with her hands on her knees. She seemed rather anxious, but as she tried to catch her breath, her tears rolled down uncontrollably.
“Is it fun to misinterpret my words? Can’t you distinguish between angry words, envious remarks, and seriousness?”
She lifted her head abruptly. “Alright, then let me tell you. When I said I hated you, they were angry words. Saying that Yun Shishi had a blissful life was an envious remark. And I’m being most serious when I say ‘I love you’ and ‘I miss you’.”
“…”
“Mu Yanchen, I don’t know why I fell for you either. After thinking things over for a long time, I vaguely realized that probably no one else in this world dotes on me more than you do.”
As Meng Qingxue spoke, her eyes turned even redder, and her tears continued to flow uncontrollably.
Mu Yanchen’s heart throbbed painfully at her words.
It was as if something had ripped it apart.
“My life has always been bleak! When I left home and went to Beijing for development, I went down the wrong path once! I entered a modeling agency, but luckily, I met you. Finally, there was someone who would hold me close to their heart, take good care of me, and dote on me! You know, there probably isn’t another person who would be so forgiving and doting towards me! I tried my best to be careful and obedient so that you wouldn’t get tired of me. Because I loved you, I felt I had to be the subservient one in this relationship. I placed myself among the dust. I know that this sort of attitude won’t help me gain anyone’s respect. I even belittled myself. Perhaps I was too naive, and so ecstatic to have fallen in love, that I didn’t care about anything else or thought about the future. In fact, I didn’t even stop to think about whether you really loved me, before I cast everything aside and flew towards you. I thought this was love.”
Pausing for a moment, Meng Qingxue smiled bitterly and said, “But what’s unfortunate is that you don’t seem to love me that much. You’re always very busy and don’t answer my calls. You have too many social engagements and too many women. Many nights, when I’m not by your side, it would be some other woman by your side. I’ve been sad, lost, jealous, envious and I’ve even thought about leaving you and going far away! I thought, there will be someone else who will love me more and be more tolerant of me. At the very least, they will genuinely take me to heart, and I’ll be the only one.”
Meng Qingxue took a deep breath, her tears flowing even more freely now. “But every time I packed my belongings with the intention to leave you, I’d look back at the apartment, and it would seem like there were traces of us in every corner of it. Only then did I realize that I couldn’t lose you at all, and I couldn’t leave you… Perhaps you wouldn’t feel this way, because you’re so proud. For you, it’s probably not impossible to live without anyone! But… I’m different… I’m different…”
“I find it impossible to leave you…”
“I don’t even know where to go without you…”