Ch.503 Desire (2)
Gong Yimo swallowed the sweet flat round cake questioningly, attempting to reason. “Gong Jue, this isn’t right.”
“Eat your cake.”
He stiffly fed her the cake.
Seeing that his expression darkened a bit, Gong Yimo didn’t dare to talk anymore. She ate the cake, well-behaved.
While feeding her, Gong Jue glanced at her nervous expression. He felt blessed inside but also helpless.
Whenever he fed her, he felt how soft her lips were. Gong Jue’s expression gradually softened and the murderous aura dissipated.
He was actually angry! Especially when he saw the tools. Even if he knew that Gong Yimo hadn’t suffered, he was unwilling for her to see another man besides him. Therefore, he seriously meant what he said. If she liked playing like this, he’d join her!
But he only looked at her in cherishment.
“Do you remember? Back in the cold palace, when we encountered the second time, you acted like this too. You fed the mantou to me piece by piece.”
Gong Yimo stopped chewing as quickly. She didn’t remember many things in the past. Especially some little things.
Gong Jue looked down and continued to feed her.
“Maybe you don’t remember but I remember everything about us.”
Gong Yimo wanted to talk when Gong Jue shoved another piece of sweet flat round cake.
“I still remember back when I was devoted to learning martial arts and I didn’t want to waste any time on reading at all. You’d hit my palm with this lash made from a willow branch. It doesn’t hurt but you’d smile proudly and then tell me that martial arts could keep a nation steady but literature could bring peace to a nation. An outstanding boy must know both.”
“Therefore, I listened to you and went to practice. Do you know why?”
Gong Yimo forgot to chew the cake in her mouth. She asked with her mouth muffled, “Why?”
Gong Jue smiled. For a moment, he was like an immortal coming from a painting. He patted her hair.
“Because not outstanding men aren’t worthy of you. Not only do I have to be outstanding, I have to be the most outstanding.”
Gong Yimo was at a lack of words. She kept her head down.
“After I left the cold palace, I felt like something had changed. I don’t want to leave you or your line of sight. Even more, I hoped to return to the cold palace, just you and I.”
Gong Jue recalled his past. Those memories were displayed in his mind clearly like each painting. Her smile and action were carved inside.
“But then I gradually realized that you were different. You don’t belong in the cold palace. You don’t even belong in Dayu. I can choose to follow you but I don’t want to be behind you.”
“You will never understand how I felt when I saw you in Xi Province.”
He described it vividly. His tone was cold but one couldn’t neglect the sweetness mixed within.
“I thought I had hallucinated but when I saw you, I was actually willing to die within my hallucination too.”
He chuckled lowly. “But you really brought yourself to my side. That’s why I have less and less control over everything. This is all your fault.”
His fingers landed between her brows, his tone extremely lingering.
“I uncontrollably fell in love with you. But I can only see you and not touch you.” He softly sighed. “You might not be able to imagine but I didn’t even dare to take an extra glance at you in the royal palace. I wanted to keep staring at you but I was scared of you feeling disgusted at me because of this deformed relationship. That’s why I kept on holding back, kept on holding back. I didn’t dare to go out of my boundary at all.”