Vera's mouth dropped open in shocked surprise and she took a step back, not fully able to comprehend what he had said. Could she have heard him wrong? Hold up… she needed a couple of seconds to straighten this out in her mind.
"W-wait… Gid… this is just too much… I… I don't understand. And, and… I am human. Right? It might not even work out for me –" Vera stammered as she tried to make sense of things.
Gideon stood and hugged her tight, trying to calm her down. He caressed her back to stop her slight panic from blowing out of control.
"It's true that it might not work as you can't wield the dark fae's magic." He explained lovingly to her. "That's why I'm doing this. I'm surrendering myself to you. So you would be able to command me and use me and my magic to protect yourself –"
"Wait… No! This… this way does not sound right," Vera pulled away, shaking her head vehemently and looked at him, her face worried now. "I can't do that to you… you're not a tool! You're my mate, Gid. You are the man I love more than my own life!"
A long sigh escaped Gideon's lips as he cupped her face gently in his large palms. "I knew you might not agree to this. But the fact that I am bring this up shows that I'm serious Vera. I'm not forcing myself to do this either. Please understand that. I am totally clear headed and not under the influence of the mating bond." His expression changed now, there was a fear that flashed across his face. "I know this might come as a shock for you… But this is the best way for me to protect you. Do you know why? Because I am trying to protect you from myself. If you have full control over me and my powers…" he trailed off at the sight of her complicated and overwhelmed expression. And he swallowed hard before he pulled her and hugged her to him again. "Alright… I'm not going to force you. I'm sorry… don't stress out yourself about this for now. I should've waited until a little later to talk to you about this. I was being so impatient and yes… worried as hell."
"There might be another way other than doing it this way, Gid…" she whispered, unable to accept the idea that he was even willing to reduce himself into becoming a tool just so he could protect her in the event that she encountered danger.
He was silent for a moment. "Right…" he eventually said. "There might be another way. But I wanted you to know that I'm still willing to do this. I have already made up my mind about it. So I still want you to consider it when you think you are ready for it. I can wait." His voice was gentle as he assured her that he was okay waiting for her to decide.
Their gazes held and the sexual frenzy broke its way through their emotional shields again. And before they knew it, they were sucking on each other's lips like a starved couple again, even though it was just moments ago when they had experienced that mind-numbing orgasm.
"Gideon… I don't wish for anything else. I just… want you… You are all that I need." Vera uttered as Gideon began trailing kisses down her neck to her breast, latching onto her taut bud hungrily. "I… don't want your power… I… can't bear the idea of… having to use you… to protect myself…" she continued talking dazedly until Gideon captured her mouth again, rendering her unable to utter anymore words.
"I know, my sweet. But what if I tell you that that is the only way for you to have me by your side?" he whispered back as he lifted her and sat her on the bed, having her straddle him. "I'm not saying there will be a day I'm going to leave you. I promised to fight the world from now on just to stay with you forever. But with what that I am, I am afraid of myself. I am not even sure of what I would do to you… without me even… realizing… Anyway, this is the best way I can think of right now. This is how I can make myself feel at ease while I'm with you…"
Vera suddenly pushed him hard on his shoulders and he fell on his back as she pressed her already dampened sex against his toned stomach, wriggling a little to distract him from this train of thoughts. She leaned back as her hands lay flat on the bed. Her eyes emotional and lustful. But Gideon saw that what he had said seemed to have caused her to have a change of mind a little. He thought that he need a little more coaxing and she would be ready to accept his offer.
"But… no… you're… you're Gideon, the crown prince, you can't –"
"Oh I can, Vera. My status, the throne… all those things doesn't matter to me. All I want to do now is to protect you. I will do anything… everything… to keep you by my side forever, alive…" and he pulled at her and kissed her sweet mouth as he lifted her bottom and entered her again in one smooth and violent thrust. "Oh f*ck, Vera!" he groaned as he savoured the utter pleasure of their union once again. He caught her face and made her look at him.
"Listen, my mate. I really don't mind being reduced to a tool. As long as it is you who will use me… I won't mind it at all. You can use me… all you want… I'm all yours anyway." And a wicked grin spread across his lips, the innuendo not lost on Vera.
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