1232 Fickle In Love 2
When he was about to walk past her, he suddenly said gently, “Don’t talk till it’s too late. It’s cold outside.”
By the time Xi Xiaye could react to that, Mu Yuchen’s lean figure had already vanished at the doorway.
Xi Xiaye fell silent for a moment, and when she saw that he had left, she breathed in and walked over to Han Yifeng.
They had not met for such a long time. Han Yifeng looked like he still had a lot to say to Xi Xiaye, yet he did not know where to start.
Xi Xiaye sat down calmly where Mu Yuchen had sat. She nudged the plate of fruits over to him. “Have some. They’re good for sobering up.”
“Thanks, Xiaye,” Han Yifeng responded.
“Ah Chen said that we had a respected guest coming over, but I didn’t expect it to be you,” Xi Xiaye said calmly as she took Mu Yuchen’s teacup from earlier and took a sip from it. The tea was still warm.
Han Yifeng’s eyes darkened, then he smiled. “I didn’t think you’d be here too. Have you been doing well?”
Xi Xiaye breathed in slightly and nodded. “I’m doing really good. Mr. Mu’s really good to me. With their help at the company, I’m not too worn out.”
“I heard that some unfortunate things happened a while ago. I feel sad to hear about Elder Madam Mu’s passing too. I hope that you will all be able to move on soon enough.”
Even though Han Yifeng did not intentionally pay attention to incidents in City Z, Secretary Wang would still sometimes mention some things to him, so he knew a little bit about Wang Hui’s passing.
“It’s fine. It’s in the past. Even if we don’t move on, she won’t come back to us. It’s usually only when we experience such things that we realize that nothing’s more important than being alive. As long as the person’s around, everything will be fine, but once they’re gone, that’s it.”
Xi Xiaye started to sound a little sad. She thought about it, then sighed and held on tightly to the cup. “In the blink of an eye, the years have passed us by. It seems like there aren’t many things we can hold on to like Grandfather, Deng Wenwen, and now Grandmother. Haven’t they all just left quietly? When Grandfather was still around, I never thought of people passing away, but unexpectedly, in just two years, I’ve had to experience the separation of life and death so many times…”
“Don’t be too sad about it. I’m sure that Grandfather’s doing well on the other side. We will just remember him forever in our hearts.”
“I don’t really believe in reincarnation, and I don’t believe in forever anymore. Just as Mr. Mu told me before, nothing lasts forever in this world, except for time…When Xi Xinyi came looking for me before this, she was hoping I could persuade to give her another chance, but I didn’t promise her anything because I really didn’t want to get involved between the two of you again.” Xi Xiaye did not hide anything as she just frankly told him about this.
Upon hearing that, Han Yifeng’s expression fell silent, then he forced a laugh. “She didn’t change at all, did she? She actually went to look for you?”
Xi Xiaye shook her head as she said in a solemn voice, “You’re wrong. She’s changed a lot. In the past year, her temper seems to have been calmed down by time. Many people only mature and come to a realization after experiencing some things, just like the way I was before, the way you were before, and right now, Xi Xinyi is going through that. Even Mu Yuchen, Qi Lei, and everyone else…we all have scars that we hide. These scars are what help us grow.”
“You don’t have to speak for her, Xiaye,” Han Yifeng fixed his eyes on Xi Xiaye and said.
“I’m not speaking for anyone. I’m just telling the truth. I think you should know this very well.”
“Don’t you hate her, Xiaye? The way she treated you, are you willing to let it go?” Han Yifeng asked.
“I used to hate her, but not anymore because I don’t see the need to. Instead of using these thoughts to resent her, I might as well spend more time on work. Making a choice that’s best for me is wisest.”
“Does that mean that you…before this, did you really…?” Han Yifeng did not dare continue what he wanted to say as he met Xi Xiaye’s cold gaze.
“Many things are easy to pick up and hard to put down. No matter what, I think that at least Xi Xinyi cares about the child. I’m a mother too, so I understand how she feels. You can’t take away a mother’s right even if you can’t forgive her.”
“Xiaye, I…”
“You don’t have to say anything anymore. I think you have your own considerations. Otherwise, you won’t be able to calmly face it every time she’s brought up.” Xi Xiaye’s cold gaze was fixated on Han Yifeng.
Han Yifeng’s expression turned gloomy. He thought about it for a long time, and then his clear gaze met hers. “You don’t have to keep pushing me to her. I admit…Xiaye, I probably did love you back then, but we were both too young…”
“The past is just the past. These things are of the last century now, so you don’t have to keep brooding over it. If you bring them up again, you’ll just be deliberately bringing up unpleasant feelings,” Xi Xiaye frowned and said.
“I don’t mean anything else. You know that it’s in the past too, and for Xi Xinyi and me, it’s the same. It’s all in the past!” Han Yifeng sounded a little melancholic. He could not help but feel a surge of waves in his heart as much as he tried to suppress it.
Even if Xi Xinyi had changed a lot, they could not be how they were anymore, much less the current Xi Xiaye.
To suffer the whittling away of time meant that he could maybe at least have those beautiful memories. As for Xi Xinyi, he felt that his love for her had been long exhausted to nothing. Even if they met again, it would only feel forced and sad.
Xi Xiaye smiled as she suddenly did not know what else there was to say. She fell quiet for a long while before saying softly, “Han Yifeng, I suddenly find that you haven’t changed much from before. You’re still so…If something hasn’t been resolved, it will have to be one day, even if you aren’t willing to face it.”
Han Yifeng was speechless for a while.
Afterward, the two of them chatted for a while more, and when Han Yifeng left, it was close to 10 p.m.
Xi Xiaye tidied up briefly before she returned to the bedroom.
Mu Yuchen was already done with his shower and was lying relaxed on the bed, talking on the phone while leaning against the redhead. It seemed like he was on the phone with Su Chen, so Xi Xiaye did not disturb him. She just got her clothes and went to the bathroom.